Patient Comments: Bulimia - Treatment


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Comment from: Troubled, 13-18 Female (Patient) Published: February 01

I am 17. I have had bulimia since I was 12 years old. Before the age of 12 I had always been a chubby kid, but when my bulimia started not so much but that led to anorexia. By the age of 14 I reached 110 pounds 5'2/5'3 I stopped throwing up and starving myself because I became depressed and stopped going outdoors, I stayed in my room and only left to eat. My binging never stopped so I became obese within a year than moved to a new school then my Bulimia started again and I lost 50 pounds but my bulimia is worse than ever and I don't know how to deal with it. Now I am beginning to have symptoms of diabetes and heart attacks it is very worry some and I don't know how to control myself but first things first I am going to a doctor. p.s. I went to one of those treatment programs for eating disorders in a hospital. I found it made my disorder worse... at the time.

Comment from: canada, 35-44 Female (Patient) Published: January 30

I am bulimic and anorexic. I have had a warped sense of what is attractive and what's not since as far back as I can remember. I was confronted in late teens and received counseling in my early 20's and convinced everyone that I had stopped, but I have continued into my late 30's. I drink heavily whenever I can because it satiates my appetite, and now I struggle with a balance between my eating disorder and alcoholism. The only time I believe I deserve to eat is when I have done an excessive amount of exercise. I live in constant disapproval of myself and I am terrified to ask for help.

Comment from: thankful, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: January 09

I became bulimic when I was16 I'm now 27 eleven years of hiding this from my friends and family. My weight has severely fluctuated throughout the years I do feel very out of control inside but others see me as put together. I think bulimia has the ability to ruin lives create lies and steal your self worth. I advise anyone who is living in the silence and loneliness of this illness to seek help .I wish I would have sooner!

Comment from: notsohappy, 65-74 Female (Patient) Published: November 10

I am 70. My earliest clue of impending bulimia (nonpurging) was at 6 yrs. old when I could not understand how my friend could trick or treat with me and still have candy left in December! My candy was eaten on Halloween. She could control how much she ate per day, I could not. I was not fat as a child so did not have trouble with the eating disorder then (we only got candy on Halloween), but in college I became depressed and started bingeing and purging; I later gave up purging after I read how it damages the esophagus. But, since about age 50 I have been overweight due to binge eating and am so tired of carrying the extra weight. I hope I can find a way to resolve this. My fantasy is to be restricted to a house where there is no access to food except what is provided by the staff (ha ha, it’s called a spa, but they are so super expensive, it is out of the question).

Comment from: DoINeedHelp, Female (Patient) Published: July 19

I am 16 years old, have been purging 2 or 3 times a day for around a month. I have never liked my body. Despite being told I don't look bad, I still have a terrible self image. When I was around 11 I started purging. My parents caught me and I lied and told them I quit. I stopped though, in fear of being caught. I have always gone through periods where I barely eat, and lose weight, and then I eat massive amounts. All I can do is stare at myself in the mirror and pick out flaws. I tell myself how disgusting I am and that I don't deserve food. I put on this huge smile and tell myself I don't have a problem, but I'm starting to think I do. I have been crying constantly. I want to tell someone but I'm so scared. Scared that they will judge me and scared that they will make me stop. I don't WANT to be skinny; I NEED to be skinny.

Comment from: BareBones, 13-18 Female (Patient) Published: July 02

I developed bulimia a few months ago. I have been depressed for years, but only recently has my mood been affecting my eating habits. It started as a loss of appetite and before I knew it, I was only eating once a day. Afterwards, I would throw up what little I did eat. My bulimia is a form of self-loathing.

Comment from: justme, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: March 06

I've been bulimic since I was a teenager- well, anorexic and bulimic (purging type). I learned more tricks about how to be bulimic- a "better" bulimic- from my mother and from women in the psychiatric hospitals I went to. I learned how to hide it, and how to make it work effectively. I am now in my sixth year of a slow march towards death. I hid my bulimia by claiming another, very serious medical condition which I was able to fake thanks to my bulimia and what it did to my body. I am now unable to defecate on my own, and I am 34 years old. I want you to think about that if you're a teenager wanting to "try it" for a quick fix to a weight problem. Remember that I am a 34 year old woman who has a damaged GI system that has required four surgeries due to my bulimia. The next surgery could well leave me with a colostomy bag.

Comment from: CamilaBell, 13-18 Female (Patient) Published: March 06

I have bulimia and I know that I am killing myself little by little each and every single day over something so sad as vanity. I can’t help it. I want to be perfect. I used to weigh 120 and somehow I got really fat to 145. Mind you I’m 5'2. Now all I do is eat and run to throw up, then do kickboxing and jump rope like crazy. I know I should tell someone but the truth is I’m scared too. They will probably think I’m doing it for attention and I’m really not. I just want to feel good about myself. I promised myself when I get to 120 I will stop but I’m afraid I won’t. Every time I throw up I feel good about myself as if I was consuming a high power drug that just elevates me. I am addicted and scared. Scared not for my life but to gain any weight. I have this idea in my head that once I reach my goal weight I will be happy.


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Comment from: Jessica, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: January 22

I am 26 years old, and it just occurred to me that I am bulimic. I think I actually had myself fooled that there is something physically wrong with me, that's why I always get nauseous. I realized that when I get down, I just want to be left alone so that I can eat as much as I want, and throw up with no questions asked. I figured I can only claim I am sick for so long before people start asking questions. My weight fluctuates a lot between 140 and 150, I am 5'7. Something in my head cannot control my excessive eating, and I think it is only natural that I throw it up to feel better.

Comment from: katystar, 13-18 Female (Patient) Published: December 24

I became bulimic about three months ago. All I can say is that this kind of lifestyle makes you miserable both on the inside and outside. It makes you hate yourself even more. Waking up every day in the morning worrying that you'll binge and after your vomit all your food, and the next day the same thing and so on. It is cycle in which you want to stay as far away possible. Please, make yourself aware of this and if you're trying to lose weight because you feel like you're too "fat." STOP! Don't use this as a method. It just makes everything worse. Do not change your eating habits, just reduce the quantities of food that you take and moderately exercise.

Comment from: karma, Female Published: July 14

Having been bulimic since 18 up to 23 now is like wiping out those young and precious years of my life. Feeling constantly exhausted, having no energy or desire for anything, with your head filled with the thoughts of food that doesn’t even register once you start consuming it. Eating until you feel like you're about to burst and purging all that out. How vile! Feeling totally worthless and miserable afterwards and for me always starting to reminisce of the happy younger me and how did I succumb and surrender myself to this disease??! So many question marks and not that many answers. Desperation and withdrawal from the world and most importantly from myself. Please stop yourself while you can.

Comment from: turtle, Female (Patient) Published: March 24

I am bulimic, and I have been for almost a year now. I don’t know why I started and it scares me because I can’t stop. I’m in major sports at school and I had to quit both because I am getting dizzy and fatigued. I binge not as severe as others but it is about 4 pounds. I threw away my scale, but now I purge about 4 times a day until I see blood or I have a deep red line on my hand. I feel like I’m dead, but yet I am still alive. I am 5 foot 3 and a half and weigh about 100-107 it varies, everyone tells me I need to eat more, but I can't because I know I will purge it. About 6 guy friends know, and about 6 girls know. I don’t know how to get over this, because I am addicted. I get headaches, bloody noses. I’m sleeping a lot more now... A LOT MORE. This is hard, but with good friends by your side it’s not as bad as it could be. I manage it by seeing a few doctors calling my friends, getting myself distracted.

Comment from: Hiding alone, 65-74 Female (Patient) Published: July 06

I have been bulimic since I was 35. There were times when I could go for weeks without binging and purging. These were periods when I could control my eating by successfully dieting or successfully eating healthy. When I am out of control I try to wait until as late in the day as possible to binge. The only thing I do to get rid of the food is throw it up. I do not want to die from this disorder, but I am afraid that I will and this scares me because I love life. Food, weight gain, bulimia... These are the biggest problems in my life and I feel powerless to control them. I am scared.

Comment from: hugeluv, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: November 10

I have been purging since I was 19 (now 34). At first i dropped 20 pounds and stayed at that weight for years. Now I am back where I was in high school but still can’t control my purging. I exercise every day and try to stay on a 1400 calorie diet (which i think is too much) and still have no results. I pray every day for god to help me but wonder if he gave up on me. I’m still going to fight every day.

Comment from: cs, 35-44 Female (Patient) Published: September 27

I am 38 years old, married with 2 young children. I have been bulimic since I was 18 - for 20 years. My husband doesn't know a thing about it and my family only knew about it when I was 20 and went for counseling. They think I recovered within a year at 21! I am always tired, am always highly stressed, I lack concentration and physically I ache all over. I cannot see a way out for me now.

Comment from: 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: March 01

I am 30 and have been bulimic since I was about 24. I want so badly to stop this habit. It's too embarrassing to go to a doctor. I wish there was an online site that gave step-by-step instructions as to how to eat again until my body was normal. I get migraines. I often am insecure if I have eaten. It's hard to go out for dinner or have dinner with friends. When I do eat now, I get sick, and my back lately has been in pain. I know all the harm it's doing, but I can't stop without a little help. The Bible says we are to be good to our bodies. It's the one thing I repent for nightly, and I pray someday soon I can quit, too. I mean I have children and a daughter. The last thing I want is for her to catch on to what I'm doing. Luckily, she's 2 now, but I need to do something.

Comment from: Meghan, 25-34 Female (Patient) Published: February 17

I'm 28 and have been a bulimic for 12 years yet like the disorder this has seen highs and lows. I like being bulimic when I'm skinny and I hate it when I'm 'fat', but I think I am mostly addicted to bingeing. I stopped a year ago for 6 months straight. I began a Masters and filled my schedule so I didn't have time to binge and purge. I didn't gain weight, I maintained through thoughtful exercise. However, like any habit, once a week can quickly turn back to everyday. I am trying to feel at ease with a full stomach and snacking on healthy food all day seems to remove the guilt and need to purge. I run 5 days a week and am bulimic 4 times a week, usually at night hiding. That is the worst part, I'm sick of hiding which I think will eventually pull me out as it's not about my weight anymore, it's about the action and as long as I say that to myself before I stuff my face with food, I think eventually I will go from 4 days to 0 days.